i think the most autistic dom thing ive done is send partners a form (no i do not still have it) of like kinks, limits, body part terms, pet names, etc before flirting/dirty talking. so like, they could check off which pet names and kinks they like and I would act accordingly. which sounds normal until it’s like “wow you’re so hot I’m going to- wait can you fill this out please? ok thanks anyway- im going to fuck you stupid”
minor edit: to everyone saying “this isn’t normal?”. having a lengthy conversation discussing limits and boundaries is normal/mandatory. handing someone paperwork before dirty talking is the funny/weird part.
Okay but it also is a great way to learn you have an office kink
okay but i LOVE those authors who link all their books together?? like not even spin offs and shit,,, just mentioning, like, a street that was where another protagonist lived, or this brand that they both adore?? like srsly i aDORE that
It’s important to me that everyone understands that if you’ve got an autistic friend who periodically sends you pictures/videos/whatever of your Thing, because they know you’re into it… They love you.
Now don’t get me wrong, It may not necessarily be romantic love, they might not want to run off to a little farm in Montana where you’ll be married forever and raise little sheeps…
But they definitely love you. And they’re so happy when they spot a post about X and go “ooh, my friend likes X! I’ll send it to them!”.
Because they love you and want you to be happy.
Happiness is stored in the 3am discord DM of a link to a Tumblr post of a cute raccoon
Hot dog water - there’s a Tumblr post out there I’ve seen saying hot dog water is the opposite of holy water, due to the fact that a single drop of it will contaminate what it touches. I assume this was partly inspired by this allusion but who knows for sure.
Also the the idea of holy water as inhuman and cleaning vs hot dog water as the remains of feeding someone - often a child - and entirely human. It may be dirty and I do not want it on me but God hot dog water has some memories. You will not wash away my sins. They’re mine. Also, anyone can make hot dog water but holy water is refined, restricted (yes anyone can make it in an emergency but lay people are restricted from it)
“you and I both know”
Unlike baptism for babies, this one is done between two people who are both aware of what is happening. The one receiving the baptism gives the orders about what they want to happen. The giver and receiver are portrayed as equals. They are equally aware of their humanity.
“the holy stuff won’t take”
Ooof heartbreaking, amazing line. Raises so many questions. What does it mean when the water “takes”? What has the receiver done that makes them unfit for holy water? Or, what has the holy water done that makes it to weak to help, to be a part of your life?
The poem as a whole - I love the lack of capitalization. It adds a sort of intimacy to the poem, and the statement from the speaker. The high words “baptise” and “holy” being offset by “take” and “hot dog”. Also “hot dog water” vs “holy stuff.” The cadence! I would lick it.
this poem is moving me to tears. the only reason twitter user yiffpolice thinks it’s self-evidently garbage is theyre trying to read it as prose
i read “the holy stuff won’t take” slightly differently though. when you look at other things that are said to “not take” it’s an expression that refers to impermanence, generally of training or a mark. in that context, for holy water not to take comes to mean that the speaker will not remain holy after a baptism, with the suggestion from “you and i both know” that this has already been proven
the use of the word “take” further reinforces the idea of training or marking and ties in with the idea of the speaker’s incompatibility with holiness by suggesting that god has rejected them, that they have rejected god, or both
this also ties back in to the request for baptism in the opposite of cleansing water and creates a narrative in which the speaker has tried repeatedly to be Good but to no avail and is now choosing to try being Bad on purpose in search of a choice at which they can succeed, but needs help to do this; needs someone to baptise them. the implication being that they’ve spent so much time trying uselessly to be Good that they don’t know how to stop
with hot dog water as a metaphor for human connection, especially framed as a foil to divinity, this turns the poem into a call for help from a speaker whose righteous isolation is killing them but who only has one person, if any, who can connect them to their first real community, which they hope will destroy the urge to be Good with a permanency that destroying the urge to be Bad has never had
EDIT BC I’M NOT DONE: also the way the only two-syllable words are “baptise” and “water” and “holy” suggests a rejection of the lofty in favor of the base
“baptise” is semisarcastic, used only as an explicit and intentional misappropriation for want of a secular equivalent
“water” is even more explicitly appropriated from its orifinal context, with holy water being reduced to holy “stuff” and the water itself being explicitly and intentionally corrupted and placed at the opposite end of the line from “baptise”
and “holy” is of course separated by an entire line—one which speaks of agency—from both of these sister words, only to be directly rejected wholesale
EDIT 2: someone in the notes said its trochaic and i realized:
the first line is in trochaic tetrameter, which sets you up to read the second line as trochaic, but its five syllables have a symmetrical stress pattern, which leads you smoothly into the iambic trimeter of the third line, which is not only an inversion of the trochaic first, but feels clipped by comparison
this poem, hated by the poet (which thematically adds to it, imho), is not just moving in content but also technically very well constructed
